I was told I grow too attached to people and things. But since when is that a bad thing? Yes, it hurts when they leave or when they stab you in the back, but our bodies and minds and spirits were created to heal. Maybe we can't regenerate a lost limb or repair something beyond saving, but we heal.
My whole life I moved. My dad chased jobs as a mechanic and was in the military so we went wherever we were told. If I never grew attached to those I did, I wouldn't have been able to cope.
I remember feeling sick when I had to leave people behind or when they left me for whatever reasons. I remember crying until it hurt. Despite those sad times, there's nothing I would do to change them. Pain is for a moment, but sometimes it lingers. I hate that I had to leave my friends over and over, and I hate that I don't speak to them because I don't think they'll remember me or because maybe I didn't mean as much to them as they did to me. Instead, I see them on social media, living their lives, and I'm so happy for them.
I look at it this way: if I didn't grow attached, I'd be in the opposite position: detached. I'd be alone. Even the guys that broke my heart or that made me feel terrible or that made me feel like I couldn't breathe without them, I wouldn't change our encounters. Everyone who has been in my life has set me on a different path, and I believe it was supposed to be that way.
Long story short, I'm glad I grow too attached. I cry during movies and I smile at past friends as they live their lives without me. I wouldn't change a day or a single person that has ever crossed paths with me. I want to grow too attached. Because that's what life is. "You never know what you have until it's gone." "It's better to have loved than lost."
We are human. We grow close to things that shouldn't matter or people we don't know. That's what being human is: holding on to what we have now because tomorrow it could be gone.
You never realize how far you've come until you look at where you've been.
I was looking through all the pictures o my Facebook. High school and middle school sure were simpler times. You had crushes and you tried to pass your test. You had friends and you had enemies. I can just remember how it used to be and it feels like it happened so long ago.
In June, I graduated four years ago.
In August, I'll be married two years.
I thought I knew who I was and where I was, and I operated on a completely different thinking level. Everything that was or will be was there and then for me. Sometimes I spoke without thinking or leaped without looking, but I don't mind seeing those as good things because I never meant to cause any harm with any of that. I can recall periods of times I went off the deep end because I felt like my world was caving in. My heart was broken or my head was dubious and all I could do was fall. In those moments, I'm glad I had friends like Mercedez', Leeanne, Hailey, Lacee, Ladyjane, Molly, April, Jelsy, Scarlett, Kaytee, Kamii, and everyone else in the little groups I ended up meshing with in school. Without them, I wouldn't be who I am today.
Today might be a struggle to stay awake. Today might be a challenge to keep my accounts in the positive. But today is always a day for countless opportunities saturated with optimism. I can't control everyone else but I can control myself. So today I'm going to make the best of the time I have. I'm going to sing like I've never sung and smile like I've seen heaven because we never know who could be having one of those days where everything is pressing in on their chest and making it hard to breathe.
I can't change tomorrow, but I'm going to change today so that when I look back, I can feel what I feel now: happiness with no regrets.
I've come a long way.
There was a time I did not exist. A time where the world didn't have me in it. It didn't have my cats in it. It didn't have my husband in it.
There are times I wish I could change, things about me I wish were less embarrassing. I wish I could speak to people without sounding like a dweeb. I wish I didn't fall as many times as I did. I wish I still spoke to people who used to be my best friends.
I wish I was good or even great at something. There's a lot of things I can do, but that doesn't mean I can do them well. I wish I could move a crowd with my voice or bring change to someone's heart through my words, but I know that is something I can't do, especially in the day and age where everyone is offended by everything. I wish I could close my eyes and no one could see me, like we believed when we were little. Yet at the same time I want to show the world what God has given me the gift to do.
But I exist now. I may not get another tomorrow. All I have is now. So right now, I'm going to do what I love and say what I mean. I'm going to screw up and fall down until my knees bleed. I may not be extraordinary, but right now I'm the best I can be because I may not get another second. And I can't get the ones I've lost back.
I had a dream the other night about someone who changed my life forever. Sometimes, I wonder if I changed theirs. Honestly, I don't think I'll ever know. And I'm okay with that. Because I am better off where I am then where I was and that is what matters.
I exist today, so today is the time for my voice to be heard, even if it is insignificant to a thousand people. If my words can touch just one person... then I can stop existing tomorrow knowing someone's mind was tilted.
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What are y'all's resolutions for the New Year?
New Year's Resolution:
New Year's Goals:
1. The One
2. Stop; Go
3. Suicide Society
6 (Maybe). Face It
7. The Blood Room AE 3
That's my list for the year. I'm about half way done with The One and I have no idea how long Stop; Go will be. Plus, I have a layout for Suicide Society and Face it, not to mention the first two chapters. The Blood Room I only have a few chapters to go (I'm on 20 because it's an alternate ending). Transfixed might be the only troublesome one because I need to find the paper I printed out early last year so that I can regain the rules and everything going on in the introduction.
Let's take a look at what I've done this year, though.
1. Published Building Monsters (January-February)
2. Published the Trapped Trilogy Bundle as an ebook (January)
3. Published the Haunted Mansion Series Bundle as an ebook. (January)
4. Published the Maskless Trilogy Bundle as an ebook. (January)
5. Published The Blood Room AE 1. (January)
6. Published The Blood Room AE 2. (January)
7. Published The Elite. (April)
8. Published Dametria. (May)
9. Published Damian's Deeds. (May)
10. Published the Unnamed Duology as an ebook and paperback (July)
11. Published Sameness (October)
Not very much, but still kept me running in circles. I also have started the process of fully reediting all my books and I took most of my books off of Wattpad to do this. THEY WILL BE BACK. All almost thirty of them, lol.
This year was chaotic and crazy, and I wasn't as productive as I had been in like 2014 when I pumped out TVC, The Unnamed, HBAM, Trapped, Wiped, Grounded, and Dollhouse. But that's okay. I can do it this coming year. Seven books. I did it before. I can do it again.
I hate using hashtags.
Lol. I just posted an hour ago. But I'm posting again.
Because I have God and anime on my side.
But I feel so comfortable with you guys, and I'm not quite sure if it's because y'all aren't commenting as much and therefore feel like no one reads these or because I've realized something cool over the past few months.
A lot of people (especially on YouTube or in a fanbase) there are a lot of the same type of people (not putting y'all into categories or anything—bare with me). Example: PewDiePie has some of the worst fans. I know, because I'm one of them. Rick and Morty has an even worse fanbase. And then there are those who like Once Upon A Time. Those who like specific authors. People that like The Office. People that actually think anime is cool (*cough*). It's really interesting to see different people liking the same things. Of course, I'm thinking of the extremists, but I think I'm one of them xD.
So, anime. I like Japanese humor. And I'm trying to learn the language—mostly so I don't have to read stupid subtitles. Which is actually common to those who read manga and watch anime.
Doctor Who. Don't even get me started on why I love this one.
PewDiePie. He's salty and the world needs more salt like his. (xD that doesn't sound weird at all) And I find him hilarious.
What am I getting at?
Most of you who followed me are a lot like me with the same interests and whatnot. Most of you love mermaids. The other 10% are probably in the "other" category.
Honestly, I have no idea why you guys are following me, but I love that you are! I've made some awesome friends on here.
Man, this is getting away from my point and you've probably already given up reading! Aghhhhh
For a long time, I tried being "professional sounding" and whatever but it's so stuffy. The only thing that should seem professional is the way I present my books and how they look as a paperback and ebook.
So recently, I've become more "casual". (And using a lot of quotation marks, apparently). I like being playful and (failing at) being funny. I like putting memes in random updates in "Curious?" and laughing at myself in my book because I did something wrong and didn't catch before. And man, do I love reading y'all's punny jokes in The One-Hundred on that one chapter (if you haven't seen it, you need to—but don't ask me which one!).
Plus, I'm that kind of person that doesn't connect to someone who acts proper and professional. I want goofy and weird and giggly (unless you need to be professional, then I'll give you a weird look). So that's why I've been so laid back. And I feel like it's reflecting in my quality of work—meaning, the quality is higher and I'm not rushing to get things out there (even if I need to). It's letting my mind cool down and stress go away.
I'm in a comfortable spot. Not stressed. The only thing I stress about is my connection with y'all because y'all are awesome and supportive and probably getting tired of hearing me say "y'all". So that's it.
Sorry if it made no sense. *~*
It seemed like this day would never come, but HERE IT IS! Sameness is now available as both an ebook and paperback AND hardcover! It might take a few days for the paperback to reach stores in other countries, but as for the US, it's up and ready to purchase on Amazon.com, as well as Createspace.com, which has worldwide shipping! If you haven't checked it out at all, anywhere, it's a definite must-read and I had so much fun writing it! I'll post a few links below for y'all to click on to take you right to the page, but other than that, anywhere you go for books, you will be able to find me; just search K. Weikel OR Sameness. If you're having problems, please let me know, and I will try and get something straightened out.
Nine months of sleep, three months of being awake, that's how the year goes for us. Half of us wake up tired and sore while all of us wake up smelling of either lotion or bleach. But during the nine month period of hibernation, I woke up. And now I know why I always wake up sore and reeking of bleach.
> SAMENESS, WHAT WE STRIVED FOR SO LONG TO ACHIEVE. BUT WHAT IF YOU'RE DESTINED TO BE DIFFERENT? <
Humans have always strived for equality, for everyone to be treated equal. We finally reached the point of this harmony, this level of sameness--and everyone is happy. Many, many generations later. But what happens when, in a wold of people knocked down and stood up to be exactly alike, a person wants to be different? What if they're destined to be unique in a world of strict equality?
I’ve been waiting for his day for a LONG time! Sameness will be released as both an ebook and paperback on 10/14/17! The countdown has begun - are you in or out?
Available for preorder now.
41 chapters. That's what Sameness will have.
Took me a week to finish the fricking outline. But I really love this story and where it's going. I really, really hope that this story wins something in the Wattys.
As you may have noticed, if you're reading it, this book is different than the rest in its structure. This character even feels different to me, and that's good. It's the kind of character I need to write about. And I know there are questions just building, and you get hints here and there about their answers.
I hope you like the journey this story takes you on, because the messages are weaved within it. This is one of those books where I hope you take the lesson to heart, and you remember it because it moves you.
Also, I want to do something cool. I want everyone who has ever felt excluded and negatively different to send in something sharing their story, and I want that story to help you, and someone else, to overcome those feelings, whether it's artwork or poems or songs or stories. Show me your individuality and don't be afraid of it. Because different is beautiful if only you let it be beautiful.
There is no deadline.
There are no rules (except keep it G - PG-13)
I will feature each and every one of them in this book.
Hopefully you will all participate. I look forward to seeing your entries.
In other news, I'm working on getting The Unnamed and The Elite into Amazon and whatnot, so keep your eyes peeled!